Wow it's been a little while since i posted here! Ok so Tristan is now approx. 13 lbs. according to my home scale. He will be 4 months in 3 days! I can hardly believe it! It's amazing how fast they grow! So lately I've been thinking about having another, DH wants ot wait until he's 18 months old to try, I dont. It took us 2 years, and giving up at the time, to concieve him. I dont want them to be 4 years apart :( I know it might not necassarily happen that way, but it scares me to think it might. My DSS is 7 years older than tristan, older DSD is 8 years, and younger DSD 4 years. a 3 and 4 year gap between the oler 2 and the younger one is enough to make it so they dont want to play with her. I dont expect that if they are close in age to want to be best friends but I do know that being close in age will give eachother a companion to play with when they choose. I'm just really depressed, on top of that I really want to try for a little girl. Don't get me wrong I love DS with all my heart and wouldn't trade him for all the daughters in the world, but I have that ache in my heart for one. :( DH and I have also been arguing alot which is really starting to weigh me down, its like we cant agree on anything. He's afraid if we start now that I will get pregnant right away. I dont think it will happen. But enough pity party here are some recent pics! ( Oh and I lost my camera which has also been upsetting me)